October update - "only" lost 2lbs this month but November will be a cracker!

IT has been a busy month for all sorts of reasons and I have had mixed success when it comes to eating healthily and exercising. There have been one or two episodes of bingeing, though not as bad as earlier slip-ups.

I have also had a couple of meals out as part of celebrations for my daughters' 10th birthday. For the first time in years I had a starter but I was very conscious of the choices I was making. I think I have been to the gym about seven times this month - am not entirely sure as have been running round, busy with work and things at home.

But I also went shopping for clothes for me for the first time in more than a year too. This, as ever, made me cry but this time it was "good" tears - I was so bowled over that I could fit into the dresses on display. I ended up buying two and hope to have them taken in as I continue to get smaller.

I wrote a piece about binge eating for a paper and had my photo taken surrounded by cake! Now I'm waiting for the piece to go in. Somehow I felt okay, as a very kind make-up lady helped put me at ease.

Oh and I had a few tests for (gulp) diabetes. They were inconclusive so I have to go back in a couple of weeks. I was a bit of a wreck about this but the nurse was very reassuring.

I'm not at all disappointed that I "only" lost 2lbs this month - two stone in the two months earlier were plenty I think so I have to be realistic. That said, I really want to do my best for the coming weeks, especially as I am going to be cutting down on sugar which I hope can help me 'ride out' the urge to binge, should it strike.

Comments

[Antonia]

"I am going to be cutting down on sugar which I hope can help me 'ride out' the urge to binge"
I think that is really key - and something I struggle with. I did quite well with cutting out sugar in the spring, but have done less wel now I'm pg again!

[Linda]

Oh hello - and congratulations! What I hope will happen should I have an urge to binge - and it's not even definite I will have one :) is that my worries about being "borderline" diabetic will be more powerful than my worries that I'm not chucking enough KitKats down my neck - worrying about my health is what got me started on this "journey" in the first place, and I need to strengthen my resolve at those particular times.

I can see now that there are 'danger times' when I am more likely to binge and am aiming to get better at finding different ways of dealing with them, but not beating myself up if I don't happen to manage it!